The Snake Syndrome

ang sitwasyon at pinagdadaanan ng isang kaibigan.

Dear Doc,

Hindi po ako iyong type na vocal pero heto ako’t nakapaghugot ng sapat na lakas ng loob upang magsulat po sa inyo.
Ayaw ko talagang magsulat pero dahil na nga rin sa matinding bugso ng damdamin at nararamdaman kaya’t di ko na rin nagawang pigilan pa. Nawa’y makapagbigay po sana kayo ng magandang advice para sa sitwasyon ko ngayon.

Meron pong isang third year student dito sa aming university na hindi ko maalis-alis ang aking paningin at nakakasalubong ko po sya every time. May pagkakataon din po na palagi kaming nagkakasabay pagkatapos ng aking klase simula nung first sem pa dahil iisa lamang po kasi kami ng building. Siya po ‘yong tipo na mahirap hindi mapansin, hindi naman siya ganun kasikat pero talagang nakukuha nya po ang atensyon ko doc. May pagkakataon din na mas nakilala ko pa po sya dahil may mga mutual friends po pala kami. May mga times din po na nagkakasabay kaming kumain nun sa kainan, sa ibang table siya kasama ng mga kaibigan niya habang pasulyap-sulyap lang ako. Minsan nga rin natutukso ako ng mga kaibigan ko sa kanya twing nadadaanan namin siya pero di ko nalang pinapansin. Gusto ko pa po siyang mas lalong makilala pa ngunit natatakot akong iadd siya sa facebook kaya hanggang stalking nalang ako. Pero di ko man sya magawang iadd, nagkakausap naman kami thru sms.

Masaya na sana doc kaso heto po ang aking problema: meron po akong kaibigan na kahit papano’y naging close ko na rin. Ang problema eh hayagan ang kanyang pagsabi na crush niya rin yung taong gusto ko at para bagang gumagawa siya ng kanyang mga “moves”. Napakaopen nya sa kanyang nararamdaman sa kanya habang ako’y nasa gilid-gilid lamang at nakatikom ang bibig. Halos ang mga nakakasabayan kong mga kaibigan ay tinutukso na sila habang ako’y tahimik lang na nakikinig sa tabi. Hindi ko po gusto ito, para kasing may lumalabas na mang-aagaw/ahas. Pero ayoko pong magkaroon ng gulo kasi kaibigan ko po siya.

Iyon doc, di ko po alam ang aking gagawin. Gusto ko po talaga siya kaso iyong kaibigan ko may gusto rin sa kanya, eh wala po akong balak na sabihin sa kaibigan ko na pareho pala kami ng taong nagugustuhan. ito po ang aking sitwasyon. Sana po matulungan mo ako.

Maraming salamat doc. maghihintay po sa ako sa inyong reply.

 -doggy

just a test. linking something. haha

Rarely do I falter whenever I am asked to answer a question for I think I am one of those people who got everything all figured out for herself. I know my height, I know my weight, and I know my blood type. But somehow, there are some questions with which, up to this day, never fail to give me the dull, spaced-out ‘Huh?’ expression in my face. Surprisingly though, that question is one of the very essential ones that I should have known by now – who am I really?

Let’s go down with the biographical basics shall we? Okay, I know, perhaps the most boring fundamentals – My name is Lourlin Jean, born June 4 year 1992. Born from a typical, middle class couple, my early childhood days were very average. I’ve got 3 sisters and a brother, and I’m the eldest in the family, giving that stereotypical family-favorite image (but believe me, I feel deprived of this so called privilege). I’m currently a student of Systems Technology Institute- General Santos City taking up a course which I later on realized I’ll like. I’m the generic teenager who thinks about photography, fun, and music 90% of the time and devoting the rest about 10% in activities that will sustain life.
 
Sounds boring, right?

I’ve been living this life for 18 years and still, I haven’t found my life the least bit exciting. My existence seem to be not much of a progress for the world and it seems that if ever I’m gonna suddenly fall off a cliff or hit by a train or stabbed to death, people will most probably get on with their lives and they will never ever notice my disappearance — I think. Such is the triviality of my existence that I find it hard to know my absolute purpose of setting foot in this land. Call me an ingrate or unappreciative for the life I live but, hey, who wouldn’t like a little kick of excitement every now and then? Maybe an OFW parent, or having a zombie-eating plant or an alien life form at the garden, perhaps. Anything that will finally put the missing piece of joie-de-vivre in the most boring puzzle in the world called ‘My Life’ – as long as it doesn’t hurt anybody or involves getting a family member killed in the process, why not.

First impressions last, they say. For the last 18 years, I’ve collected from various types of people mixed impressions about me – snob, approachable, cheerful, scatter-brained, moody, mysterious, “suplada”, and even homosexual. But none of these are actually true for in fact, I consider my self a social chameleon – I change according to the situation and the people around me and hence, I’ve got no particular prevailing trait within me except being highly observant to everything and everyone within my vicinity. I can be a hyperactive kid with autism or a shylent (shy and silent) girl in the class or even a blood-sucking parasite under the furs of a scabrous dog – all depending to the people I am with and the overall situation that I am in.

But then, I cannot always be a changeling. Being random has its own drawbacks. You always seek a missing something within yourself – a concrete fixed identity; a personality that will stay and will finally give you that certainty that you are being yourself and not just some person who depends on others to become herself. It gets pretty frustrating sometimes because one must love thyself first before you can even start loving anybody else. Maybe that’s why I never ever had the chance to have a long lasting serious mutual relationship with a guy. Not so boring now, is it?

The simplest words sometimes convey the most complex meanings. I can’t even believe that a three-word question would generate these very long thread of ideas. Unfortunately, I still find it hard to answer this question because I am one of the many people who are still on the quest on finding their inner self – and that will never happen overnight. Given time and perhaps effort, maybe soon I will. But for now, I’ll settle being just a puny chameleon – observant, sensitive, fickle, unappreciative – in this cruel, harsh jungle called reality in the violent world.

I’m more than just a typed-out paragraph. Be with me so you’ll know.

LOVE says we will….

” The world says we will never make it, but LOVE says we will” And YES! LOVE was right. We did make it to another year!
From the beginning of the relationship, many contradicted. Family and Friends gave their reasons why they didn’t want him for me. But those reasons didn’t stop me from giving him a second chance that everybody deserves to have. 
I knew the consequences of giving him a chance and disobeying my family and friends would  be arduous. It was like He and I against the world.You have that feeling that when the world is against you all you have to do is to fight back…You know  when you wanted something. You just don’t stop. You fight For it. You fight for that one thing that makes you happy. 
For some, they are against of this relationship because we are OPPOSITES. It’s like saying he is the “BAD” guy and I’M the “GOOD GIRL”. Indeed, We are TWO  different people from TWO different ” WORLDS”. In short, he is everything that I am not. We maybe different from each other but we have one thing in common- that is LOVE. A love that others may not TRULY understand, a LOVE that others may not be able to SEE and FEEL. But who cares? As long as we both know that we love each other, WE WILL FIGHT FOR THIS!
Tears have been shed, hurtful words have been said but this I hope that eventually, sooner or later they will be able to accept the FACT that I love him and he loves me in his own ways.
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TODAY is our 2nd ANNIVERSARY.
24 months: 10 months of being together, 14 months of battling and defying the DISTANCE. Mahirap at nakakabaliw. May mga araw na gusto na naming sumuko hindi dahil hindi na namin mahal ang isat-isa kundi dahil sa SITWASYON. Tama nga sabi nila ang LDR daw para lang sa mga matatapang. MATAPANG Nga ba kami?? o TALAGANG sadyang mahal lang namin ang isat-isa na hindi namin kayang sumuko. Basta ang alam ko and SUSUKO TALO!ahahhahahaha..
MALAYO man sa isat-isa, I still make sure na napapasaya ko pa rin siya gaya ng pagpapasaya niya sa akin..kaya heto ang regalo ko..
i told my cousins to buy a Penshoppe shirt for him, kaso nahirapan sila maghanap ng nice ang design,ewan ko bakit kaya eto na lang ang pinagawa nila..hehe..personalized shirt..SIla ang nagbuot unsa ang ibutang..Shock na lang ko..aheheh.. PERO salamat my dear cousins from the bottom of my heart..dami nyo pasalubong s akin..aheheh.
aT….. heto kami kanina
medyo malungkot kc miss na nmin ang isat-isa..pero okey lang..In time, all things will fall into its places..
“ANNIVERSARY: a time to celebrate the beauty, gift, and the BLESSING of enduring LOve.”
IM THANKFUL AND BLESSED because YOU LOVE me. 
I LOVE YOU and I always will.

Credits to the one who made this message in facebook: Ms. Cacay my Sensei. 🙂

MGA PARAAN PARA HINDI MAISIP ANG EX.

Mahirap kung sa mahirap. It really takes a lot of time para makalimutan ang isang taong minsang naging parte ng buhay natin.
Oras at panahon ang pinakapundasyon para makalimutan ang isang tao. Maliban jan, ano ano nga ba ang mga paraan para hindi na maisip ang isang tao na naging parte ng nakalipas natin?

  1. Lumabas kasama ang mga barkada/kaibigan mo.
     
    – Madalas naman talagang nakakawala ng problema kapag ang mga kaibigan mo na ang ksama mo. Pakiramdam mo nawawala ang problema mo kapag kasama mo sila.
  2. Kumain but be moderate.
     
    – Kung baga, dahan dahan lang sa pagkain. Pero wala namang masama kahit isang araw kang magpakalimo sa pagkain. Di ka naman siguro tataba ng ganung kabilis. Tandaan, dahan dahan lang sa pagkain kain.
  3. “Bakit nauso pa ang Social Networking Sites?”
     
    – Oo nga naman. Bakit nauso pa yan? Kung magmumukmok ka lang naman pala sa isang tabi para isipin yang ex mo. Nanjan ang Facebook, Twitter at…. Blogspot (lol).
  4. Subukang lumandi.
     
    – Walang mangyayari sa’yo kapag hinayaan mong umikot ang mundo mo sa mundo nya. Parang ganto lang yan, hinayaan mong umikot ang mundo mo sa isang tanga.
  5. Makinig ng mga malulungkot na kanta.
     
    – Maraming nagsasabi na “wag daw tayo makikinig ng malulungkot na kanta.” Kasi maaalala lang daw natin ang mga ex natin. Yes, a sort of. Pero hindi rin. Bakit? Dahil marerealize natin sa mga kanta na yan kung anong worth natin as a person. Siguro sa una maiisip at maaalala mo sya pero someday mawawala rin yang nararamdaman mo sakanya.

Tulad nga ng sinabi ko, it takes a lot of time para makalimutan ang isang tao naging parte ng buhay mo. Lalo’t lalo na kung nagtagal talaga at nagmahalan kayo.
Isipin nyo naman, kung mahal talaga kayo ng taong yan hahanap at hahanap yan ng paraan para ipaglaban ang relasyon nyong dalawa. Ang tanong, ipinaglaban ka ba? O ikaw lang ang nakipaglaban? Ang pangit diba.
Ang magagawa lang natin ay ang maghintay lang para sa tamang oras at tamang panahon.

A VALENTINES GIFT FROM A BOY TO HIS GIRL

Dear Love,

This time I won’t give you roses or sweet dark chocolates , but rather write you a letter
and try to tell you everything I feel inside.

I am deeply in love with you. You are my most precious treasure and the greatest gift I received from God.
Forgive me if it sounds too cliche or if it falls short to express what I really feel for you.

I want to thank you for everything. I want to thank you for saying “yes” last November 30,2010 and for choosing to live this life with me.
Thank you for your love and trust, all that I can do now is love you better and better each day.
Thank you for holding my hands in the happiest and in the most unforgettable moments of my life,

Thank you for giving me the warmest hugs and the most romantic kisses. I’m also grateful for our little fights and misunderstandings.
Thank you for still loving me when I’m forgetting to love you selflessly. Thank you for being the best lover,
girlfriend, and best friend. Thank you for teaching me that love is so much more than the feeling of butterflies inside my stomach.

I will always be by your side no matter what the future will be. I want to make you smile and make your days bright when you feel so down
and promise I’ll give you my skinny shoulders when you need to cry.

Sorry if I still screw up ,but I promise I’ll be better for you.
Sorry if sometimes I throw jokes about your eyes, forehead,and your nose.It was all joke and will never become true or half-meant
…You are the most beautiful woman for me
and please don’t be skeptical when I say it to you.

We’re already in our 2nd month and fourteenth day towards forever.
I want to grow as a better man who will love you with all I am, share and fulfill my dreams,
and live my entire life with you. Happy Valentine’s Day Love

I love you!

Your Forever,
Garry

HAPPY VALENTINE’s LOVE! HAPPY VALENTINE’s

How to keep your girlfriend happy.

  1. One & Only. Your girlfriend should be your one & only. Make her feel special, ok guys ? You’re lucky to have her even if she’s lucky to have you too. We know there are prettier out there but we like feeling as if we’re the only beautiful one in your eyes, & the only one you see.
  2. “Ladies first.” No. That rule doesn’t apply to communication. Don’t wait for her call, text, IM, why don’t you try talking to her first for a change ? It’s thoughtful & sweet if a guy can actually do that. 
  3. Surprise her. You don’t have to drive an hour to her house at 3 a.m. to set off her name in fireworks in front of her window, but the little things are big things. A simple, good morning text, is more powerful than you think.
  4. What insecurities ? For the love of God, all girls have insecurities. Please don’t point them out. For example, today I was looking at food & my boyfriend said “You eat a lot. You probably could beat me at a buffet.” WHAT. THAT’S NOT WHAT YOU SAY. Also, let her be herself. If she’s having a bad hair day, don’t make fun of her if it’s hurtful. Let her wear sweatpants & still feel pretty damn cute around you, even when she’s not looking her best. 
  5. Act the same around your friends. You’re not a real man if you completely blow off your girl in front of your homeboys. When you’re going to hang out with her & your friends you better not run off & leave her standing there to greet them like WUDDUPPP GUYSSS.. NO, you better at least walk with her & introduce her to them if you haven’t already. If you walk with her hand in hand, she’ll love it. 
  6. When she’s mad. Dude, you better try & get her back. Chase her, whatever it is, don’t let her walk away when she’s mad at you. It shows you don’t care enough to go after her. Don’t let her go. 
  7. Maintain. If you did a bunch of cute things with her before, try & keep it up. You don’t have to go all out everyday for her, but don’t stop completely just because you got her already. 
  8. Honesty. If you lie to her, you’re going to have one hell of a time regaining that trust because she’ll start questioning everything you’ve said or done for her, no matter how small that lie was. Fess up or get lost. 
  9. Trust. If your girl really doesn’t like one of your friends, trust, she has good reason to. Girls’ intuition -shrug- So don’t go hanging with your homegirl all the time if you know your girlfriend doesn’t like that bitch. She usually won’t hate for no reason. Respect her. 
  10. Love her. That’s all

Do number 10 with all your heart and all else will follow 🙂

PAANO NATIN MALALAMAN KUNG SERYOSO ANG ISANG TAO SA’YO?

Paano nga ba? Sa totoo lang mahirap talaga malaman kung seryoso ang isang tao o sa’yo o hindi. Sa totoo lang, nagkalat naman kasi talaga ang mga taong hindi nagseseryoso pagdating sa pag-ibig.
May mga taong, nagpapalipas oras lang. May mga tao din namang seryoso, pero hindi nabibigyan ng pagkakataon.
Paano nga ba natin malalaman kung seryoso ang isang tao sa’yo?

  1. Mahaba at seryoso sya kung makipagusap sa’yo, sa text at tawag.
    – Well, hindi parin lahat. May mga taong nageexist ka lang kapag kailangan ka nila. Kaya kilitasing mabuti at wag mong hahayaang malaglag agad ang brief o panty mo sakanya ng ganun kabilis. 
  2. Pinakilala ka na nya sa mga kaibigan nya.
     
    – Pero tulad ng una, wag agad agad maniniwala. Kung muka namang mababait ang mga kaibigan nya at mukang hindi basag ulo. Pwede ka namang maniwala pero kung hindi, wag.
  3. Pag nagkakatampuhan kayo, nakikita mong affected sya.
     
    – Idagdag mo na rin yung makita mo syang umiiyak. Pangdagdag pogi/ganda points. Isa to sa mga rason para malaman mo kung gaano ka-seryoso ang tao sa’yo.
  4. Pag palagi kayong nagkikita/Pag lagi ka nyang sinusundo.
     
    – Syempre sa mga dahilan na yan, makikita mo kung gaano sya ka-sincere sa mga ginagawa nya para sa’yo. Dagdag points pa para sa mga babae, kapag ang lalaki hinawakan ang kamay nya habang naglalakad kayo.

Sana sa mga paraan na yan, malaman nyo na hindi basta basta pinapasok ang isang relasyon. Kailangan nating kilatisin mabuti ang isang tao, para rin sa sarili natin ‘to.
Para hindi tayo masaktan, at gawin nating ginto ang bawat luha na papatak sa mga mata nyo.

Source: gravityymind

PAANO MAGMAHAL ANG ISANG PINOY?

Sabi nga nila, isa sa pinakamasarap mahalin ay ang isang Pinoy. May mga katangian tayong Pinoy na wala ang ibang tao o ibang lahi. At sa tingin ko yun ay ang, walang kapantay tayong mga Pinoy kung mag-mahal.
Ano nga ba ang mga katangian at rason para masabi nating masarap magmahal ang mga Pinoy?

  1. Malambing tayong mga Pinoy.
     
    – Alam mo yung mga tipong holding hands while walking, pupunasan mo ang pawis ng boyfriend mo o hahatiran mo ng pagkain ang girlfriend mo. Ganyan tayo ka-sweet at ka-lambing.
  2. Halos ibigay natin ang lahat-lahat kapag nasa isang relasyon tayo.
    – Minsan, kahit masaktan pa tayo mabigay lang natin ang kaya nating ibigay sa isang relasyon, gagawin natin.
  3. Marunong tayong mag-sakripisyo.
     
    – Hindi tulad ng ibang lahi, tayong mga Pinoy mag-sasakripisyo tayo para lang sa ikabubuti ng relasyong meron tayo.
  4. Maalaga tayong mga Pinoy.
     
    – Alam mo yung tipong, hatid-sundo natin ang mga girlfriend natin sa bahay nila. O kaya man, pagpawisan lang ang boyfriend mo mula sa basketball game nya pupunasan mo na ang pawis nya. Ganyan tayong mga Pinoy kung mag-alaga.

Kita nyo na kung gaano tayo kasarap mag-mahal? Kung tutuusin kulang pa ang mga dahilan na yan para masabi natin kung gaano tayo kasarap magmahal.
Pero ang pinakatatandaan natin na, lahat ng sobra nakakasama. Lagyan ng limitasyon at hangganan ang relasyon. Malaman dapat natin ang tama sa mali, at syempre marunong tayong magtira ng konting pagmamahal para sa sarili natin.

The Starting Point.

 This is how it goes when I translated my recent Blog post into English Language.

Just notice the difference.

After how many years, i came back. It’s been a long time since the last time I updated my blog entry. I can still recall my blog site at as well as my first blog entry. ‘So its the beginning’ I said. Beliefs, ideas, Views and thoughts. All of those were written to my Friendster blog to the fact that I can’t still access it. Disappointed. *TSK

In the beginning. I’m still at elementary when I decided to start a blog. “Nothing”. To make use of my time”, as I said to myself. In my blog is where I am free to express my feelings and thoughts. With the fact that I’m not able to show my feelings in verbal and expressive manner, as well as my emotions. I just let my hand and my pen to write whatever thing that may come and run unto my mind. Letting my mind fly, to where it may take me, to where i may go.

And now, I came back again. To write again the things I wanna share. But a streak of anxiety because as what others say like , “What you put to the web, stays in the web. It becomes a public property.” And maybe stupidity may occur again. Laziness. Yes it is. Don’t you hate gaps? Some sort of having broke entries for some reasons like being dumb in writing or what. Or maybe your train-of-thoughts is out of order? But whatever it takes, I’ll get this brain working 🙂

Ang simula…

Matapos ang ilang taon, muli akong nagbabalik. Matagal na rin mula nung huli kong entry sa blog. Naaalala ko ang aking unang blog site at ang aking unang blog entry. ‘So its a frist’ sabi dun. Mga paniniwala, mga idea, mga pananaw at mga saloobin. Ang lahat ng yun ay nakasulat sa friendster blog ko na sa anumang kadahilanan ay hindi ko na magawang maaccess pa. Nakakapanghinayang. *Sigh
 
In the beginning. High school ako nun ng mapagdesisyonan kong magsimula ng blog. “Wala lang. To make use of my time”, ika ko sa sarili ko. Sa blog ko naipapalabas ang aking mga hinaing at mga saloobin. Hindi ko kasi magawang maging verbal, expressive kumbaga, sa aking mga nararamdaman. Hinayaan ko nalang tangayin ng aking kamay ang ballpen at isulat ang lahat sa papel. Lumilipad ang aking isipan, kung saan saan nakakarating, kung saan saan napapadpad. 

At ngayon, nagbabalik ulit ako. Para isulat muli ang mga bagay na gusto kong ikwento. Pero may bahid ng pagkabahala kasi nga raw , “What you put to the web, stays in the web. It becomes a public property.” Tsaka baka umandar na naman topak ko. Katamaran. Oo nga naman. Don’t you hate gaps? yong tipong napuputol ang entries kasi for some reason tinopak ka sa pagsulat o di naman kaya’y di gumagana ang iyong train-of-thoughts? Magkagayon man, I’ll get this keyboard working 🙂

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