Let’s go down with the biographical basics shall we? Okay, I know, perhaps the most boring fundamentals – My name is Lourlin Jean, born June 4 year 1992. Born from a typical, middle class couple, my early childhood days were very average. I’ve got 3 sisters and a brother, and I’m the eldest in the family, giving that stereotypical family-favorite image (but believe me, I feel deprived of this so called privilege). I’m currently a student of Systems Technology Institute- General Santos City taking up a course which I later on realized I’ll like. I’m the generic teenager who thinks about photography, fun, and music 90% of the time and devoting the rest about 10% in activities that will sustain life.
Sounds boring, right?
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First impressions last, they say. For the last 18 years, I’ve collected from various types of people mixed impressions about me – snob, approachable, cheerful, scatter-brained, moody, mysterious, “suplada”, and even homosexual. But none of these are actually true for in fact, I consider my self a social chameleon – I change according to the situation and the people around me and hence, I’ve got no particular prevailing trait within me except being highly observant to everything and everyone within my vicinity. I can be a hyperactive kid with autism or a shylent (shy and silent) girl in the class or even a blood-sucking parasite under the furs of a scabrous dog – all depending to the people I am with and the overall situation that I am in.
But then, I cannot always be a changeling. Being random has its own drawbacks. You always seek a missing something within yourself – a concrete fixed identity; a personality that will stay and will finally give you that certainty that you are being yourself and not just some person who depends on others to become herself. It gets pretty frustrating sometimes because one must love thyself first before you can even start loving anybody else. Maybe that’s why I never ever had the chance to have a long lasting serious mutual relationship with a guy. Not so boring now, is it?
The simplest words sometimes convey the most complex meanings. I can’t even believe that a four-word question would generate these very long thread of ideas. Unfortunately, I still find it hard to answer this question because I am one of the many people who are still on the quest on finding their inner self – and that will never happen overnight. Given time and perhaps effort, maybe soon I will. But for now, I’ll settle being just a puny chameleon – observant, sensitive, fickle, unappreciative – in this cruel, harsh jungle called reality in the violent world.
LIVE-LOVE-LAUGH-LEARN 
